Modern slavery in comfort.

I walked to the store.  I am a slave.
I idled in the rows of shelves. I am a slave.
I brought out my debit card.  I am a slave.
I purchased food for my children.  I am a slave.
A man gawked at me in the street and I hurried away.  I am a slave.
I saw myself in a store window, a woman.  I am a slave.
I depend on my husband's income,  and the monthly payment from our Lord and masters.
I am a slave.
One day,  these shackles will fall.

Jar of memories.

I'm awake, still dreaming.
Memories influencing my every move.
I'm rolling in the sheets, aggressive motions.
Trying to find the exit.
Breathe deep, I'm still drowning.
Deep inside the mental traps.
Awaken me,  or I'll do it myself.
Scrape the memories off like tar,  and shove it in a jar.

Sweet cocaine

I'll never forget how you taught me to love, to smile,  or to feel so fiercely.
I will always remember how you would stroke your thumb along my temple, flowing with my curves all the way to my waist.  I memorized your smile,  the way you loved all the pieces of me you put back together.  We flowed as one, an entity that separated and meshed as one and many.

Slowly I saw you as you were, before you blinded me with your fire.  I saw the fire for what it was.  A force to be reckoned with,  not fireworks that I had felt inside.  Too late,  your poison had spread.  I left you,  my sweet cocaine.  You left without leaving me your antidote.

Frame of memory

Tendrils of moisture run down the window frame,
Washing away the summer grime. 
Cannot wash away the thoughts of you, 
Everlasting scars in my limbic system. 
I sometimes get lost in limbo,  between the nickel and the gold. 
Memories swarming like locusts unleashed upon the sky. 
Do I ever need some insecticide. 

Alarms and Keys

I looked out the front window today,
Thought to myself why do I even care.
True friends may stay and then they go day after day,
There it goes, giving my heart another tear.
Hey, just you wait, ya'll gonna need me soon,
I'll tell ya where to go with a smile.
I'm like an old guitar out of tune,
In my shoes you couldn't go a mile.
If my friends were still around it would be a hell lot easier,
They're all dead and gone.
So the days go by and I get queasier,
The thought of being abandoned making me ill, like their friendship was a con.
All I'm gonna need is the ones that fit in my arms,
Yeah they'll miss me.
Hearts going off like little alarms,
Trying to crawl back without a key.

History of Violence

How can we stand so tall,

When people are dying in a mall.

It's no longer safe to watch movies,

And kids fight over loonies.

What are we coming to,

When killers are in the shadows waiting for their cue.

I remember when kids roamed free,

Were always home in time for tea.

Now sick men patrol the streets,

Tempting children with their treats.

Integrity is getting so hard to find,

Constant death is damaging my mind.

We send our love to the people who suffer,

Truth is we need more of a buffer.

A long time solution to a society gone wrong,

This history of violence has gone on too long...

Mandatory for you

It's not mandatory that you get paid, to reap benefit. It's not mandatory that you will be appreciated for the things you do, the things you create, or even for the person you are. Everything you succeed in, you must do for yourself and not for anyone else. They might not see the light in your eyes when you find happiness in the world, and may not accept those things regardless. Sometimes, they will hate you for it.  The greatest power in life, is pledging yourself to your happiness, and gunning away until you have it. No matter what the people around you think, as long as you don't cause harm, what business is it of theirs?
Devon Jones

Waiting for Soul Mates

Sometimes we're blind to the things in front of us

We say no just because

We're too scared to admit the truth

We pretend to be aloof

When all we want is to be surrounded in what we feel

Too afraid because it feels too real

Until it's too late, you made them wait

Then it's gone, you've lost your soul mate

Life pushes and shoves and rearranges, until you forget the faces

Constantly moving in bizarre paces

Their face is still a permanent fixture in your mind

Making you wish you could rewind

Fix the mistakes you see now

Stuck in emotional undertow

Dawn til Dusk.

Dawn til Dusk,

Questions resonate within.

No answers found in this husk,

Feeling used like a trash bin.

Bombarded from both sides,

By of questions of their own.

Your anger rolls like tides,

I'm warning you now, watch your tone.

Before I take everything good back,

Make me regret you.

Again and Again you attack,

When I know you're sorry too.

It's hard to smile

You are my perfect distraction,

From the heaviness in my heart.

You give me drive and direction,

His kisses taste tart.

When I know he'd rather be elsewhere,

It's hard to smile.

As your eyes from mine do tear,

I feel that you are already gone a mile.

The best of us grips my finger,

I try to smile for her.

But the tears linger,

These feelings are something I never again wanted to encounter.

Sailor on an ocean of love

Like a sailor longs for the sea,

I long for your hand in mine to be.

The emptiness that freezes my core,

Lusting after your presence, always wanting more.

You have no clue that my past is haunting me,

For my happiness to return, you are the key.

I need you, why can't you see that?

Every time you leave, I need more than that.

Blessing in Disguise

This sudden gift to me,
Finally someone has heard my plea.
But the timing see,
Is better not to be.

I've realized that their is no receipt,
This is mine to keep.
Not one, but two must greet,
This new arrival.

One heart says yes, the other says no,
You can run, but I have nowhere to go.
I've sunken to a new low,
Sucked beneath the undertow.

A blessing in disguise, a chance at happiness,
Or maybe it will just create a mess.
I'm wondering if this is all a test,
Or will we lose it all, over this.

Let's have some clarification

Let's have some clarification,

On this messy situation.

I need to know if you are happy,

Being my little girl's daddy.

Cause if you aren't then please don't waste any time,

By milking me to the last dime.

I want to be the lips you dream of,

I'm the one you should think of with love.

I can't help but feel you're passing me by,

It makes me feel as if I could die.

Selfishness is not an option,

Cartooned anger in a new caption.

I heard once that love contained,

Can leave some one very deranged.

I demand of you to speak the truth,

Before this comes to claw and tooth.

Let Anger Lay...

The blood on your hands,
Is not that of a man's.
Love ruled you this night,
You threw it all aside, leading into a fight.
You wanted respect, and now you have less,
You left us with this mess.
You don't want to listen to the words that aren't yours,
Now the red blood pours.
I called you brother, one of my kin,
I should have listened to the voice within.
Straighten your thoughts and curb the rage,
Lets try to turn the page.
Part and stay away
Until another day, and anger is left to lay..

Kick of Reality

In the moments I feel alone,
Sitting still in the quiet, just breathing.
Loneliness clenching at my heart,
I'm jolted by a stirring in my being.
A kick of reality and ironic timing,
You are not alone Mommy.
You never will be,
Happiness envelopes me, and I know you are right.

Unborn Gold.

When I think of you inside me,
Growing by the day.
My heart gets a little warmer,
And gets a golden glow.
I promise you love and affection,
And a hand to hold when things get cold.
I promise you my little one,
You'll be my pot of gold.

Camera Vision

Clean the wounds beneath the skin,
Purge the secrets within your kin.
Develop the film from your eyes,
Focus quickly or lose the prize.
Gone in a flash, quick to pass,
Inside it's all just a violent thrash.

Clouds over Heaven

Everlasting blue
In an infinite world of darkness
You were like a light in the dark, a hope for me too
When you found me, I was still struggling in the mess
Even now there are days where I can't find myself
Even days where I can't find your hand soon enough
I put everything that made me happy on a shelf
Found my armor, shrugged it on again, the weight makes me tough.
Degenerating my self control, guilty for what happiness I have experienced
It shouldn't be this way.

Hostile Heartache

It was a cold winter day, when I forced you away,
For the warmth of another.
My love dissipated, my soul was again mated.
We were just a bad fit for each other.
You fought until I let it unleashed, a foul beast.
I really did tell you it was over.
If only you had accepted this, maybe there wouldn't be so much to miss.
You needed to let me go.
There's a place in my heart where you're trapped, even though I thought it already mapped.
My arms are hostile ground, my eyes a trap to be bound.
I can't love you, I love him.

Undertow by Timbaland

I don't wanna talk now
I don't wanna hear you scream no more
Want somebody to save me
Everything I do feels like its wrong
All we do is fall down
even though we try to stay afloat
I swear its gonna kill me
even though you think it wont
So why rock a boat and make waves
And everything's coming okay
So why am I confused if you love me
Thought this would be smooth sailing

Cause I don't wanna let you go
and we're caught in the undertow
Cause I ain't losing my control
And we're caught in the undertow
I hold the prayer is all our own
but we need air we go alone
cause I don't wanna let you go
til we're caught in the undertow

I don't wanna cry every time we try it never fails
Change the direction wanna be close set for sail
My hearts in your hand don't you go hurt me again
all we got is one chance and its sink or swim
So why rock a boat and make waves
And everything's coming okay
why am I confused if you love me
Thought this would be smooth sailing


Cause I don't wanna let you go
and we're caught in the undertow
Cause I ain't losing my control
And we're caught in the undertow
I hold the prayer is all our own
but we need air we go alone
cause I don't wanna let you go
til we're caught in the undertow

And the world is rising
And the world is rising
And the world is rising
And the world is rising

Cause I don't wanna let you go
Through the crowd in the undertow
And I'm losing my control
Through the crowd in the undertow
And I don't wanna let you go
But we're caught in the undertow
And I'm losing my control
Though we're caught in the undertow

Our only prayer is all our own
We both need air we go alone
Our only prayer is on our own
We both need air we go alone

Cause I don't wanna let you go
I don't wanna let you go
Cause we're caught in the undertow